It has been an eventful time since my last blog. Lots of things happening, lots of things to do. A fairly busy week this week, even though I am on holiday. People to see and places to be, or is that people to be and places to see............

The reason for a weeks holiday is the fact that it is my XX birthday (number withheld for your safety). I had a full week to take before the end of March and it seemed as good a time as any. It is a good job I am off this week as the whole moving situation has taken off this week. Had one viewing so far and liked the flat, so me and my friend agreed to take it. It is now up to the landlord to decide between us and another couple of people. Hopefully we will find out tomorrow. It is the perfect location for both of us - right on the beach and overlooking the sea. Perfection!

I have just spent my third weekend out on the trot. Drinks and a film at a friends a couple of weekends ago, Go-Karting and clubbing last weekend and a Monty Python marathon and curry this weekend. I am now poor until I get paid on Wednesday due to this plethora of socialising! Hey, I have enjoyed every minute of it. It has been totally worth it!

Tuesday. Another visit from her. A new look as well. Shoulder length curly blonde hair. I personally think it is a good look for her. No one else has given her an opinion yet. I think she wants to see what people think next weekend. She may be going to a mutual friends birthday drinks,but she is not sure yet. I am hoping her days of indecision are coming to an end. She really needs to get out and show herself to the world - in daylight anyway!

Even work is going OK. Had a good performance review, had some good feedback from other managers and I am missed from my old place of work. Must be doing something right. It is just a shame that the one person who can help my career is about as useful as a chocolate teapot.  I cannot really do any more to prove that I am capable of doing above and beyond the scope of my job roll. Ho Hum!

This will also be a good week for me to work on my gender conundrum. I have amassed a great deal of information to digest and a lot of questions to ask myself. I have had a lot of feedback from my friends - some positive and some negative. I have taken everything on board and hopefully I can clear the path ahead of me further. I will let you know how I fair later in the week.

I may have mentioned in my last blog that I had been moaned at for not blogging enough. I accept that the good friend who made the remark was only concerned about me and it was not a pointed remark. I hope they will accept my sincere apologies. I also must offer congratulations to a good friend of mine on the birth of her baby boy. A few weeks late and larger than anticipated, but both are doing well.

I am writing this whilst having two facebook conversations and one text message conversation. This sentence has so far taken me five minutes to write. This post will probably take me about two hours at this rate!! Last night was just as bad - three email conversations! At least it keeps me occupied and not watching the T.V.....

Resolutions...I am eating healthier, putting the past behind me and still working on who I want to be. With regard to the last one, I went to the gender group for the first time this year. As I have not been since November, I was a bit apprehensive about going. I knew I had to make the effort to go, as it is part of the process. Over Christmas, all I had was the flip side of the argument. Now it is time to broaden the argument again.

The feeling of isolation may also be coming to an end. The living situation will hopefully be progressing soon. The wheels are finally turning and there is now a light at the end of that particular tunnel. I feel lots of viewings coming up!

I went to my doctors last week and mentioned getting the wheels of transition started now. I have been told that the process is basically down to when they feel I am ready to be put forward to the psychiatrist. From that point, it usually takes about a year for the appointment to come through. So, if and when I decide to transition, I will have to wait even longer to start the process. I suppose I have waited 30+ years so a few more will not hurt.

I have been fairly busy socially, which has helped. Quizzes, take aways, Cake days (yum, yum!) and visiting family have kept me active. Go karting and birthday drinks this weekend and a curry on Monday are all being looked forward to. Just need to save my pennies now!

She really wanted to go out on Tuesday, but she felt that she wouldn't be accepted by the general public. She really wants to go out at some point this month - hopefully the opportunity will arise soon. Maybe next Tuesday - if she can muster up the courage to. I hope she will be around before next week. She needs to come out more.

It has taken me about an hour to write all this. I think it is time for a well earned cup of tea and then sort out the washing up. What an exciting life I lead!!

So, this is the first blog entry of the 2014. I know it has been a few days since my last blog entry and for that, I am sorry.

My last entry stated my resolutions. It is only 10 days into the new year, but I can say that so far I am just about following them. I am eating healthier and watching what I eat; I am trying to put the past behind me with regard to my marriage and I am still working on who I want to be. I am starting to feel like all three are interlinked and will ultimately determine my future. Only I can see to that.

With regard to everyday life, so far, it has been OK. I had a very enjoyable New Years Eve with some good friends, felt a little unwell, physically, for the first couple of days of 2014, been out a few times for drinks with friends, taken part in a pub quiz(which we won!!) and generally mooching about. Nothing out of the ordinary. Mentally, I am in a good place at the moment. Glad that Christmas and New year are out of the way and the promise of a new start for 2014. However, I am still taking it one day at a time. 

She finally came back round this week. I have not seen her since November. Tuesday was my day off and she invited herself round. I was good to see her again and it really helped my mood. She wants to go out more this year and I really hope she does. I think at least once a month if not more. I will be pleased if she comes round more often - invited or not!!

I have been moaned at for not blogging enough, so I will endeavour to blog more frequently. I expect as the changes to my life increase, so will the blogging. We will see this time next year if the changes are major or minor. I am going for major............