Life is a journey - don't waste time wondering, just go. That should be my mantra, but, I am always procrastinating and putting things off. Story of my life. If I had put off my marriage, perhaps I wouldn't be in this position! Jesting aside, it is becoming a bigger issue, the older I get. I want to do things - like bringing my alter ego out more - but when I get home in the evenings, I just can't be bothered.

Admittedly, I haven't been well recently and that hasn't helped, but that doesn't excuse my long term malaise. I know I am the only one who can move myself forward and now I am feeling a little better and have a little more zing, I hopefully can start to move myself forward. Small steps, not great big leaps. Fingers crossed!

Another bonus, is the possibility of a move to a new store at work. As my current manager is as about as useful as a chocolate fireguard - I run the branch, he just bumbles his way through - I will be glad to get away. He has already been asked if he could cope without me. He said yes, I say no. Only time will tell.

To aid my 'recovery', I decided to take a walk along the stretch of beach near where I live. The combination of a slight breeze, sea spray and sunshine really cleared the cobwebs away. To me, it was absolute bliss!

I don't get to do this very often, so having a half day yesterday and with a break in the rain, meant that I could indulge once again.

No alter ego this week and probably not next week either. However, with my new sense of journey, I will endeavour to indulge her and help her into the world if it is possible. I know she is eager to get out more and I know I've said it many times before, but I do intend to try harder. She can be very hurtful at times and I had enough of that in my marriage!! Onwards and upwards............